yeah.. i'm writing this when u are sleeping like a baby, snoring like a baby pig..
before u slept, we were cuddling happily just now, joked and laughed like no one business, didnt even bother that we might woke my parents up.. until we mentioned about when will i be coming back from Perth.. you started to be emotional, maybe add a lil angry and of course, sadness.. i'm totally understand, totally know what is in your mind, baby because i feel the same too almost every night :(
let me start with this, maybe by how we knew each other and met each other?
somewhere in June 2007, Nat introduced u to me in the internet and i got to know u. initially, u didnt feel like want to talk to me at all.. perhaps just thinking that i'm a playgirl that time by simply adding u in friendster and talked to u in msn? i was a total stranger to u at that time. but after awhile, u were fine talking to me, almost everyday.. i missed talking to u and i was always the one who nudge u and said hello to u :) things changed until u met me and Nat.. our first movie was The Mummy 3? or maybe u take that Ah Long Pte Ltd as our first movie? LOL.. we got closer after that and u tricked me by asking me to be ur fake gf.. as if so huh? ya, i was kinda stupid, i got tricked by him and we went to Rainforest Pavillion for dinner with your friends. at that night, we got together and it was so darn random baby.. at that time i was doubting whether i made the right decision. yeah.. its on 23rd of August 2007, the date that we clarified ourselves as couple :) remember our first kiss in Putrajaya? on 31st of August, watching fireworks. aww.. u and i know what happened on that day :)
however, eversince we got together, i didnt give u a very good start for your first ever relationship in your life. i admit that i hurt u a lot and u were treating me so well. i got touched when u were asking me back, lied to me that u were at home, in fact u were stalking at me outside my house when i was studying in my study room.. it was raining, and to enable u to watch me clearer, u were standing in the rain, u hoped that u can climb over the fence to see me but u cant. i texted u to go home but u resisted. i cried and we patched back. but i always compromised and broke your heart unintentionally until i promised to myself and u that i will never break your heart again and treat u better, and i think i made it. partially? somehow, baby, i'm really sorry for what i did last time.
things changed after my serious promise to u and i tried my best to be ur sweetest gf and also i hope that i will be your first and last gf. we celebrated our birthdays, valentines, chinese new year, christmas, new year and bla together even though our celebrations are quite simple and very very normal, its like normal days for us. i remembered my first birthday celebration with u was in Genting, had our breakfast in Old Town. i knew u tried your best to bring me somewhere special, even advanced your salary to bring me there to celebrate my birthday, being so considerate to me on that day even though u were still dont really know how to be romantic.. but baby, i was happy that day! really happy! :) but we didnt really celebrate our christmas and new year, rite? but we still had fun together though we were bored at that time. both of us hate packed and stuffy places. we prefer more free and more oxygen place perhaps? at that time, i was totally understand your financial status and your job, visiting u in your working place already became my routine, packing food to u as i know there's not much choice for u to eat at Putrajaya Alamanda. u have to work during Chinese New Year and ended up, we celebrated together at your handphone shop. when i thought of it, i felt funny and humorous. but i enjoyed being with u all the time, i dont mind u lack of time for me, didnt buy things for me, but i feel contented having u by my side. i would rather spending time with u watching our dvds with snacks on our hands on the bed, laughing together without spending loads of money bringing me to fine dining, buy me branded stuffs. because you are my most priceless thing i ever had in my life and i dont even want to lose u :)
maybe i didnt really celebrate your birthday in 2009 well, but somehow i made it along with your friends in Neway after u finished your work. we did a lil hang out, bought u a top because i was kinda broke at that time, and i think you would probably know why i was so broke. hahaha. baby, i was so missing u when i was away to Thailand with my mom for only few days. cant even contact u because of my international roaming problem, my hp almost finished battery and i was finally bought a spare one in Ipoh just to call u! u scolded me because i bought an expensive battery where it was not a genuine one. but u appreciated me for calling u because u missed me till u barely to breath rite? :P
how we celebrated our first anniversary? honestly, i admit that i forgot a lil but i remembered that i sacrified a job because of u, and i wanna celebrate the special day with u. we hanged out in Pavillion as usual, no arguments and just pampering ourselves. :)
baby, even though we did argue alot in 2009, on and off for several times, and God knows how many times, but we got to know how much we appreciate each other, how much we love each other and how much we want to change for each other. and baby, i'm totally appreciate on the effort u are taking now to change yourself for me. even though i know u are having hard times in changing also because of my temper and attitude. i promise that i will change, i just need time like u do aint it?
on my birthday in 2009, u wished to have a special celebration with me but due to your financial problem and family problem, we cant have it but we had our simple celebration in Mid Valley and Pavillion. i remembered that u bought me a big cup of ice cream from baskin robbin and i had to force myself to eat everything up because i dont want to waste. yet, i still had a great celebration with u even though we didnt really go anywhere for the eve and birthday. i dont mind what my friends think about me and u, but i mind on how i think about u. u are just great for me :)
talking about my christmas eve, should i say my worst christmas eve? i wouldnt want to mention about it because i almost forgot everything about it. because i just want to keep happy memories with u, let sad memories to be our past and experiences. rite? at least me made something out on christmas in Neway again.. LOL.. its still a celebration rite? minus nagging from ur dad.
our new year eve, sudden thoughts from me to have a steamboat at my house while my parents went for Sunway annual ball. we made it though even though not many people having steamboat with us. after steamboat, u fetched me everywhere to assure me that i'll be able to watch fireworks! even though we couldnt really got to see fireworks, i appreciate your effort! i just love u so much baby!
and today 4th of January, 5.06am, i told myself that i want to be a real good gf for u because i want u to marry me. i want to assure u that i can be your wife. i will learn everything just for u and of course change myself. i want to motivate u in your job, support u and listen to u whenever u feel stressful on your job. i will pray hard for u and i believe that u would succeed soon because u have been putting hard works and effort to give me a better future.. i realized u are just so important to me and i wish i can own u forever till my last breath. i love you, aaron cheong wy lun. ◕‿◕
baby, i really hope that u will trust me, will support me in everything i do, because what i do, there'll surely a reason behind. of course if can i dont want to leave u because i know on the day i leave, u're the person that i dont want to leave the most apart from my family. but i can promise u that i will fulfill your wish whenever i can. this is my promise to u. i hope u will feel better and i really wish to spend my precious time together before we cant spend our time together like me used to. i just want to fully utilize my time with u and of course my family too. i know and i'm very sure that i will miss u like heaven when i'm there because i've tried it when i was in oversea, or u were in outstation. seriously it pains and it does hurt. i dont want u to get hurt or sad either. i just want u to be happy, both of us to be happy. i hope for your call after u read this post. i love you.
p/s: baby, i might missed out something in this post because there's so many things about us to write in here. but i kept everything about us in my heart, locked and u are the only one have the key and pass to read it. :) imissyou
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